Memory~

When the rain started to pour on my face,
I know you wanted a warm embrace,
While you put your head on my chest,
I could hear you breaking away,
Melting my heart away.

Flipping back all those memories,
It's just unfair to me,
I hope you have a corrupted memory,
So you won't go back to misery.

Flash back twisted your day,
Memory driving your way,
It's leading your life away,
Making you unable to stay,
Future is on your doorway,
Please don't shoo it away.

Knowing love is cruel in the first place,
Leaving promises we couldn't make,
Making scars on our heart break,
Wetting your handphone on your face,
While I cried on the other end.

Wake up knowing nothing is perfect,
Look in the mirror there's a sad face,
You and me we are the same,
Trying to learn from our mistake.

Flash back twisted your day,
Memory driving your way,
It's leading your life away,
Making you unable to stay,
Future is on your doorway,
Please don't shoo it away.

* Don't let go of the future,
Future is what you have,
Take your memory away,
I'm here to stay.

Leaving your misery behind,
Maybe it's time to shine,
Watch out for the night light,
We're going love blind.
♥♥♥

一天一天的过。。。
问问自己到底什么错。。。。
我不富有。。。
努力解脱。。。
烧成了烟灰。。。
我也努力追。。。
到底谁是谁。。。
我无法分别。。。

其实我不说不代表我不痛，我也很想很想。可是不能说。。。人呀总会做出自己后悔的事。老实说我很怀念，很希望。可是现在没得期待了，人已在别处了不得往回了。有谁了解我的心情。

很乱。。。

Name: Adrian Lee Zen Hao 李振豪
Birthdate: 22 November
School: LimKokWing university
Email: Jokkey@hotmail.my

Her
Family
Friends
Life

2006 - Introduce to singing.
2007 - First duet competition got consolation prize.
2007 - Winner at "Hidden Star" singing contest.
2008 - Join the Note Tower Music.
2008 - Third prize in ”舞台之星“ with a group called "Eveline".
2009 - Learnt Guitar and recording procedure.
2010 - Started my study in LimKokWing University.
2012 - Graduated in "Animation Multimedia Design".
2013 - Unknown

Are you sure your ready for my life?
If your thinking that I'm from a wealthy family.
Then your wrong.
If you think everything that I have right now is from my parents.
Your wrong again.

When I was still a child, everything seem simple enough. Study, eat and sleep. Everything changed when I'm 16, going to work after school from 2 p.m. till 10 p.m. My school performance fail dramatically, I didn't do my home work, played basketball whole day at school. What could I say, it was play time during that age. When I'm 17, my family started to fall apart. Problems kept coming at us non-stop. Life's imperfect.... On my 18th birthday, my family couldn't financial support us all any longer, my sister started to go to work and my life started in college. It pains me to see every time when my family argues about money. It's always about the money.

And here I am working my ass off trying to make my life perfect and my family better. My family tax me more than the government does right now, sometimes I didn't even have enough to eat. Well its just life and I'm just been positive in life. Money is just paper printed on colours.
I'm still striving myself toward success.
My friends are one of the few factors of why I'm here today, they helped me when I'm down, guide me when I'm lost...
Now it's a new life with a new beginning, I wanna take that special someone into my life, passing every single day with a happy smile.
If she doesn't care about my background, I'll give her everything I got.

To be happy...
To be brilliant...
To read someone's mind...

妳说我给不到的。。。。


妳还没给我机会，
就先判我死刑，
我有着另个天地，
等着妳，
不要因为一棵树，
而放弃整个森林，
我所有的美好，
还没献给妳。


求妳别再伤心，
或者难过，
人生本来就是，
不公平，
只要妳懂得学会，
看得开，
妳就感觉得到，
我心里的爱。


我只想把妳带去，
宇宙里，
让我们一起，
创造天地，
那些麻烦的事情，
就别再想起，
因为要懂得伤后站起，
才学会长进。


我写的这些东西，
不是拿来读而已，
是拿来给妳，
了解的，
世界不会为妳，
停止时间，
想要让妳知道，
我在这里。


想到当天我们见面，
的那个时间，
大家都是还在摆着，
一个脸，
Facebook和真人，
不同感觉，
没想到妳的照片，
输给妳的脸。


第一次的美好，
一定是甜蜜地，
在哪普通的餐厅，
开开心心，
吃完然后看戏，
真是完美的游戏，
真想让妳知道，
我真的很开心。


就算对我说了从前，
我也不介意，
因为妳让我知道，
妳是怎样地，
没有人会有完美，
的过去，
想让妳知道我心里，
妳是满分地。


可是现在的妳，
在不同世界里，
有时伤心有时难过，
让我担心，
想想方法安慰妳，
却不领情，
想抱妳在我怀里，
哭个不停。


看妳流泪我却流血，
在心里，
孤孤单单自己承受，
所有伤心，
妳说我们只是朋友，
的关系，
让我看回所有过去，
我做的事情。


现在心在疼痛，
只能说我活该，
自己伤心自己开心，
自己担心，
求妳别再往回，
以前的回忆，
因为未来还在门口，
等着妳。


妳给我的感觉，
是特别地，
如果没了它，
我也不会约妳，
真想知道妳的心里，
我在那里，
真想快快在妳心里，
拿第一。


可是想来想去，
爱情不能紧张地，
还是慢慢看着妳，
守护者妳，
直到妳懂得，
跌倒爬起，
那时的我，
才能牵着妳。

December 2013

什么是心理的痛？

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